right now i'm certainly hoping that i won't get a failing mark on the card. i have a very bad feeling with statistics, but i'm pretty hopeful i won't get a failing mark. now i'm wishing to get an 80 or 81 at least in the damned subject.
it's really very unfair. last year's batch of sophomores didn't have statistics. why is our batch unlucky in these academic matters? god, i am certainly hoping not to fail statistics or get a grade lower than 81 or 82 this quarter, but i think i can officially say that my chances are out the window because of the said stupid subject. damn. i hope a lot of my batchmates got low grades in statistics -- i definitely need the intervention of standard deviation now.
how lucky can one get? first i lose my chance at the subject proficiency award now i'm fearing a line of 7 stuffed up to my face. i've had enough of line of 7's, please.. i don't need to see any more of those. i'll definitely make myself go up this third and fourth quarter -- second year's almost over and i might as well make the most out of it. at least my parents know what to expect -- as they've seen that my exams for the second quarter got lower.
please lord, no line of 7. PLEASE.
Thursday, November 4, 2004
05:51 p.m.
i wonder how long will it be until everyone who seems to understand me so well now will finally crack up and give up on me? i have their assurances now, of course, but that's what i had with certain people before as well. promises, assurances, pacts and vows. now, they're gone. i haven't got them anymore and it took me long enough to realize that i never did have those people in the first place.
i still can't get over the things i've lost. i'm losing them one by one. first i lost one of my three best friends. then the other one follows suit. then i've lost a dream, a goal, a purpose. what's next? c'mon, freakos, bring it on. or go astray while everything's going away now. go with the flow, people, so i won't have to feel the pain of your pending absences anymore.
what am i going to do with my life now?
Wednesday, November 3, 2004
08:19 p.m.
